Crush. Living in your eyes.

I am looking at someone
so close but cannot be reach.
He is like my favorite star up in the sky
which I look often because of its light.
I want to get you but
I guess you are too far.
I want to catch you
and make my dream come true.

You are my dream
both day and night.
You are on my mind
every single second, minute and hour.
I want to talk to you
but my mouth won't open.
I can't speak.
No words come out.

You are just standing in front of me.
Only inches away from me.
Your presence makes me weak,
pulling my tongue up to my knees.
My heart beats unusual
because of your unexpected visit.
At least learn to knock
on the door of my heart.

I was able to look at you.
To stared and observed you.
I am looking from your head to your feet
even up to your soul and spirit.
In your eyes i found the light
that I was searching my whole life.
You have a deep black eyes
that I first to experienced.
Commonly, I see black eyes
but when illuminated becomes brown.
To you it's different.
The blackness is over-reacting.
Your eye's blackness is uncouthly.
It is like watching a scary movie
the feeling of frightened and creepiness
that was brought by a serial killer
that is ready to kill me.
Or a vampire that have sharp teeth
that's just waiting for the right moment
to suck my blood.

Overwhelming darkness when i opened my eyes.
I look on my left, right, around me
no one is there with me.
Light shone on me.
Blinding lightness that comes from nowhere.
A sunlight that is enough to guide me.

I am in a zone
that I should not be.
I don't know where I am going and
Why I am here.
I keep on walking
to the path that is not particular.
Hoping someone who'll be found
like a kitten lost in the city.
Why'd you bring me here?
Instead of making me happy
because I saw your soul
you only give me sadness.
Are you sad?
Is this my purpose
that's why you hypnotized me?
Why are you opening my heart?
DON'T! I won't let you.
My beat should not be awaken
because when it is
frenzy and hurt occurs.
I can't fall to someone
whom I barely know and talk.
Whom I only see on the
four-cornered building.
Whom used to passed me
and ignored me.
Let me go out from here.
Don't take it away from me.
I should not fall for you.
It's impossible and unbelievable.
Don't make me fall from that well again.
I am scared. Afraid.
I don't want to be hurt again.
I don't want to love again.

The darkness is shaking.
It is breaking. I closed my eyes.

I am looking at you.
Your eyes that is so black.
The blackness is over-acting.
This time, I noticed the twinkly little star.
A tiny little star that outshines the rest.
The spark that's different from others.
Your eyes have that spark.
You have the star inside you.
The star I wanted to get and catch.
The light that I have waited my whole life.
It is YOU. I cant be wrong.
You got yourself another compliment.

I am happy, I FOUND YOU.
You made me inspired
by looking through your eyes.
I want to ease the darkness.
I want to erase tour sadness
but how will a someone LIKE ME
will help if I am suffering
that kind of darkness too?
I wanted to help you.
I am here. Just here.
Watching and guiding you.
Even I don't exist in your world,
YOU MEAN THE WORLD TO ME.
'I LOVE YOU!'
i guess it's more appropriate to say
"I CRUSH YOU!"